Saturday, August 8, 2009
i've tried
it's not i've never tried, i've tried to understand in alot of ways. i change for you, but you didn't like it, how about when you changed when i didn't like it? it's not about saying it to you , it's like why should i make you changed for me? you are who you are i'll accept that fact, but i just don't understand something, why you all know what hurts and what makes things look ugly, and sometimes you all do it to me no knowing it? i do this to you because i want you to feel hurt? No.
i thought maybe this is what you want....
i can never understand you if you never open yourself, and really nobody can,
and since i'm just hurting without knowing...i'll go
i know you still love him, i know i can't stay anymore ,
i can't keep hurting myself , i've to break promise now . . .
Jie i feel so away from you.. . ... .i said all those not because i wanna hurt you jie
it's because in the past i used to just listen and all you did was those and cry while i just sit there and watch doing nothing , not even a single word from me, because i had no guts to say a word.
i thought i could make you feel better , i thought we all grew up ,
I thought Hearts could be connected together...maybe i was wrong what i did was all all wrong
i don't think anything i do now can pull that past back i can never be the person you all wanted to....i can't find him anymore , i just have to be slient then, i'll shut my mouth.
As we sat there slient
I was reminded of all the reasons why i loved you
your smile,
and the way it bring such life into me
your laugh,
and the way it makes everything okay
your eyes,
and the way they seems to read my thoughts. . . .
As we stand here now. . . .
i'm reminded of all the reasons why,
your smile,
the way it confused me
Your laugh,
and the way it seems to mock me
Your eyes,
and the way they can look into mine and not feel a thing
i know doing this hurts all along
do what makes you happy
because whatever i said you never listened to me once. . .
even a small simple thing . . .
last post i'll fucking delete this blog
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