Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Nice or Ice?
okay my Internet has been done
as promised i won't leave this blog rotting not like Darren stuck at the bird shit post =x
took lots of pictures with jiejie update it later. . .
I'm really tired maybe that wasn't the game for me
seeing back to the old days yeah it's so true i still feel it now
i still feel that feeling called love.
it comes and go like the wind.
never for once it stayed.
for all the times and days.
it all felt so right.
but it all end within one bloody night.
when you said bye.
i was left alone.
i wasn't in your arms anymore nor i could feel you.
time goes by and slowly you're fading.
like that wind that comes and go.
did you looked back?
like what i'm doing now?
i look up in the sky.
hoping to see your face.
i daydream and i see this empty face.
all i feel is i tired and i'm tried.
but never for once i gave up on you.
did you realise it my dear?
no .
you didn't all i could said is your took me for granted.
you cruck me aside .
you had problems right?
did you share yours?
no.
you kept it all to yourself.
thinking you'll be a burden to others.
have u ever thought how i felt?
all i wanted is to be closed.
I just want to hold you tight.
and never let you go.
so after all that i've said.
ice ? or nice?
i feel so scared to be nice . . . .
when i'm being so ice you stayed
but when i started to be nice almost everyone was the same
i've realise this since i was with them. . . . .
but i've never once believed it but now i see it.
everyone is a hypocrite, you are one so am i.
never the less this war within me has it's end
even thou something somethings are cleared
i still see those voices in me tell me to be aware of another bomb
is it because of the past?
or am i just being a fool thinking too much again.
i'm super afraid
No war please don't come
Let it be peace
is this what everyones parying about?
then let me give you a small answer
BULLSHIT
if there is an angle there is always a devil
if there is police there is always gangster
if there is white there is always black
if there is happy there is always sad
the world is unfair .
live with it .
you get what i mean?
i wanna try being in the middle, i wonder what will it be like?
or should i pull myself away and keep away from all this, nar another bullshit from me.
I'm so aware of you
thats maybe there's alot of talking about you .
i'm so afraid of you because you can hurt just like how it happened
i'm so freaking pissed just like how you pissed me before
SO CAN ANYONE SAY THAT ALL THIS BULLSHIT IS NOT TURE?
LIFE IS A BOMB
ONE WRONG WIRE AND YOU"RE DEAD
Play with it the way you won't die
maybe mine just did. . . . .
Hopeless as it may seem we stand and carry onward with the ripples of water that surface on our hearts
i truly understand what the poem above means to me now. . .
As we sat there silent
I was reminded of all the reasons why I love you
Your smile,
and the way it brings such life into me
Your laugh,
and the way it makes everything okay
Your eyes,
and the way they seem to read my thoughts
As we stand here now
I am reminded of all the reasons why I hate you
Your smile,
and the way it confuses me
Your laugh,
and the way it seems to mock me
Your eyes,
and the way they can look into mine and not feel a thing
This is for you. . .
She can feel the pain
and also the sorrow.
She doesn't want to go on.
So she prays for a better tomorrow.
It's hard for her to cope.
She'd like to runaway.
In her heart she knows
that she can't stay.
You can see the sadness
deep within her eyes.
She would like to stop the madness,
but instead, she just cries.
She prays for strength to move ahead.
To survive another day.
She pleads for the courage to be brave
so she can simply walk away.
i hope you find peace with this one (:
How can my life be like heaven, if my heart feel's like it is in hell... hias..
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