Friday, June 12, 2009
it's all wrong things that keep rushing in like
water and the problems that were just flooding your fucking brain
that makes me
so . . so. . .so crazy right now
maybe the lies were just too real
or maybe it was just like the past
where that bitch lied so well
it's hunting me . . . .
i can't sleep
i can't eat well
i don't even know what I'm doing.
is it because everything had to go?
it's really hard to be me
i feel so broken
whats this, why?
i wasn't Glad
must i leave ?
to make you happy?
maybe if i had just lost to everything
you would'd bother about it or me anymore
i always thought of having my simple life but
really i swear. . . simple ain't for me and it's hard for me.
JieJie-
I'm really sorry you may have to see me real weak again.
the past was great where we can count on each other
talk cock sing song, ton, share almost everything.
sometimes i feel like I'm so dumb.I'm sorry you're facing so much stress and I'm adding on, you didn't have to worry about Darren or whoever but me, because I'm always so weak, naive and stubborn, I'm always so softhearted and I'm always so forgiving that's what makes me a total idiot.
and when all the shits happen to you all i can do is use my words, i could'd do anything for you, i tried to but i could'd things are not as simple as i always thought
maybe i just don't understand you well enough....you always seems to hide all your sorrows to yourself and putting up a strong front so that no one worrys about you. I'm sorry sometimes i should have been like that. . . . .
Noel-
BUDDY CHEER UP =x
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maybe you understand but not matter how much u tried to understand me now, you'll never know how i feel now , this is how i feel , i tried to sleep but when i close my eyes all i can hear is my name keep calling out, and those fucked up memories that keep flashing back. maybe you were plotting all this from the start we met .
well be it a lie or is it real it's just a memory not us anymore. . . . .
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sometimes i just need a break
i wonder when can i go overseas again =(
tata I'm trying to get to my lala land now hehe
nights. . .
take care
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