Tagbox is removed i don't wanna hear any lies anymore brothers? or rubbers?
i only belive in Mabel she was the only want to be there when i was sad or happy i cannot belive you , you , you or you !

i might be going in even if i don't i'll go mia to find my ture self i want to know who Donovan Quek really is. . .i lost him ever since lily came , as i try to find the old him i turn to a new him,

sometimes i wanna cry for you guys but i always must put on this strong front, i'm never happy with life i swear , what rubbish is this?

i've always been selfish to myself and giving in to you guys but fuck it atlest you guys say something about it? can't you guys see it? or must i say it? will i believe i always to believe when you try hard people will see it without you saying it, but maybe i was wrong
everybodys changing and i really don't feel the same.

should i be selfish?
is that what people are?
what should i be like to have fucking great friends like you guys?
if you all hate me go ahead.
i've always do wrong things i know it.
i've not been the guy you all wanna hang out with maybe?
but for all that happen HATE ME just do it.
i won't blame anyone anymore maybe thats all i've to be
people thinks that if things don't turn out their ways

what are brothers for?
real brothers don't care who you are
they just acp the fact of what you are , they will always stand by you even if you are wrong
they will always love you brotherly , cry with you , smile with you
i'm sorry Jerad i got you , darren and zhi quan in to this

i'l been feeling so confuse and scared now
i'll let go of everything
i'll be selfish now
i. . . . really wanna cry now

i'm scared of my future, my brother, i'm scared of whats going to happen if i give everything up what would happen?

i'm confuse of what choice i should make i must do it soon.
of i'll be really dead

how should i ans to them?
i go school everyday sitting alone sometimes
i don't know what i'm doing
what the hell are you doing?
huh?

man this really sucks

when i'm in the cell in the station i think back about my life
i guess the only friend that has always been there for me is my Jie mabel
she knows me well , and hell to myself for not doing the right things at first
hell to the idiots out there that is trying to pull me down.


I WANT TO MIA TO FIND THE ANS MYSELF

to everybody
don't worry about me i'm not worth
MG is fun i just don't wanna tell you that =]
my mei mei take care okay?
Dearest Nu er don't do anything wrong le life is great it's just how you make is great =]
the rest i'll not say i cannot type any longer this is just too stress

any chance if anyone sees me agian please....go away after i settle today and after that day i'll find those who i promise to find i'll do what i need to do before mia-ing

Jie i hope i can talk to you all i can today.