today i went to play basketball even though my body still ache ha ha
played from 2pm-5.30pm

then i went to Amk to meet jie we talk alot

she said to me Di The one who has the capability to control one's emotion over the girls is guys

guys are has the capability to control girls emotions , i asked her why

and the answer was

1. guys can make girls happy not matter what they do
2. guys also can make girls freaking sad for what they do to them


she also told me that if the girl really love you she won't care how ugly or how handsome you are . . . and she told me that all girl's even wanted guys to give is their heart and sincerity

i don't know whats she hinting me or is she trying to tell me something?

she's sad deep inside .... i guess i'll never understand girls .

i guess i just don't know how to make you happy J , I'm trying my best but i just don't know how.

is it that I've lost how to be a sweet guy ,
I'm sorry i just really don't know how to be sweet i know i suck I'm lousy
I'm trying to be as sincere as i can

is it because I've not been in a relationship for too long?

or is it that I've not tired harder...

I'm sorry J

remember the day before yesterday you said you love me for the first time?

you said it's easy to say you love me

but to me when you said that to me it's the most sweetest thing

i know you've got other better guys all taller , smarter , more handsome maybe richer then me

i can't compare really i don't .

J i'm really sorry if i just can't make you happy

but i really hope that i won't make you sad and angry

all i ever asked for is for you to be happy


i know sometimes i'm just too plain and dumb =x

but not being able to make you happy everyday makes me sad .

okay i've gotta go now. . .







GoodnightSweetDreams